Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Jumping Off v.s. The Jump Off

Okay...the flesh is weak...we all have needs...yadda yadda yadda. It boils down to fucking. Someone's gotta do the fucking and someone's gotta get fucked. I have recently found my self in an interesting sexual position....or shall i say a predicament in my sex life. I'm single, or shall I say more single than I've been in a while. I'm not in committed relationship, but I do have strong feelings (love feelings) for a nigga, but that's another post. I'll have to title that one "Confusion At It's Finest". One of ya'll be sure to remind me about that one.

Back on subject....I've found myself messing around with a fuck buddy, cut buddy....a JUMP OFF. Just for kicks. Nothing serious. Just a nut and keep it moving....I don't know if I can do that anymore. In the past, it wasn't a problem. But I felt so unfulfilled, like there should've been so much more to the experience. I almost felt filthy, like I was a manwhore or something. It just didn't click with me. Why does this nigga call me "Bae" and say he loves me and shit now? That's even more of a reason why this jump off shit is for the birds or maybe I need to develop a contract, or better yet sit my ass down and let my trusty appendages do the work in times of need. (But that's no fun) The sex was good.

And then there's the nigga that sends the random texts of "Hey" and shit when he wants to fuck. I occasionally take the bait and go back and forth with him only to drive out to his house to have sex. This is the most random arrangement. The last time we kicked it, I spent the night. We kissed and shit. You know kissing is a no-no! I wanted more. At least I think I did. I know he didn't because weeks will go by before I cross his mind. Same here. I felt like a manwhore. But in this case, I felt like a slutacious manwhore. The sex was good though.

Needless to say, i may need to settle my ass down, because Jumping Off and being The Jump Off just doesn't seem to work for me. There are no guarantees I won't be butt ass naked jumping off into some kind of sexual eruption. Till Then......

7 comments:

Omar Ramon said...

go for what you really want and stop settling for a quick nutt. they don't get any more satisfying than the physical release and , as you said in the post, they start gettin complicated with nicknames and "i love you"'s . Because at the end of the day, both parties really want companionship,not just copulation.

listen to ya heart before it loses it's voice! (aight i'm startin to feel like iyanla vanzant, i'mma shut up now, but you get the gist of what I'm saying)

life said...

I think this is a wise decision. Good luck with sticking to it

Ailed LittleKnight said...

I have to side with omar on this one...

Nario said...

Hmmm interesting, I am at a loss of words. I think I will refrain from stating what I would do, either side of the fence you are on there will be the good and the bad of it all. Read the bible that should help.

Cocoa Rican said...

The guilt is yours, but it seems that your enjoying it all and as you say, "..the sex is good," so stop bitchin' and keep enjoying it for what it is. When you meet the right one and decide you're ready to settle down and NOT be this "manwhore" you're feeling like, you'll know it...'til then, it seems to me you're missing the beauty of manhood and our ability to keep our respectability through promiscuity.

Cocoa Rican said...

The guilt is yours, but it seems that your enjoying it all and as you say, "..the sex is good," so stop bitchin' and keep enjoying it for what it is. When you meet the right one and decide you're ready to settle down and NOT be this "manwhore" you're feeling like, you'll know it...'til then, it seems to me you're missing the beauty of manhood and our ability to keep our respectability through promiscuity.

bLaQ~n~MiLD said...

I know I'm late but I SOOOOOO agree with Cocoa!!! LMAO.

~Damnit!