Thursday, July 22, 2010
It's time to grow the hell up. At damn near 30, you'd think that to be a ridiculous statement, but it's true. The hair on my face. Bass in my voice. Height. Weight. Education. None of that means a hill of beans when you can't face the present in a mature manner. I've been running away and running in circles. If it is to be, it is up to me. It's a process I've avoided for damn near 30 years. Long overdue.
What are you guys reading out there? I'm reading a book entitled "Growing Up Black". It's a collection of essays that include the stories of Amiri Baraka, Angela Davis and Maya Angelou to name a few. It captures poignant moments in their coming of age. I find it ironic that I would be reading this book and experiencing the recent eye openers on my very own immaturity.
Adam4Adam and BGC may have become an addiction for me. I don't necessarily hook up with any of the guys, but the sites were becoming a Facebook for me. So, I deleted both. I've deleted before. Let's see how long this last.
Until the next blog....
I may be late, but I'm loving VV Brown...
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Anyway, I said this all to say that a large number of my Christmas texts came from mysterious numbers. I never text them back to say "Who Is This?". For several reasons like:
- They thought of me enough to save my number on their phone.
- They are simply wishing me a merry Christmas, not requesting a kidney.
- Maybe I should leave well enough alone.
Needless to say, I didn't know what ex-boyfriend, ex-friend, one night stand, former co-worker, family member was behind a lot of the well wishes, but I am appreciative to be at the push of their thumb via the send button.
Has anyone out there had any interesting moments with anonymous Holiday text messengers?
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
I've been officially single for almost a month. And when I say officially single, I'm referring to not having any ties to anyone (booty calls included) and I'm refreshed but still feel a void. It's like I'm longing for something. I don't know what exactly it it. I certainly don't want to be in a relationship. More specifically, I don't want to be in a relationship with anyone that I know of right now.
I wouldn't mind dating. Hey, that may be what I'm missing. Who the hell knows. It's 4 AM and this is what is on my mind...
The freedom I love. I think it's the lonliness that's getting me.
Friday, September 11, 2009
I've done all of this thinking, only to arrive at the conclusion that I'm thankful from where I've come, where I'm at, and where I'm going.
Although the past is the past, it's still relevant. I have to digest the good with the bad. This is random. Your boy has been going through though. For real. Hope to return to the blogosphere full time soon. Much Love
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
BTW::::I had a one night stand that has not left my mind. It was passionate. It was sweet. It wasn't the usual f*ck and go, go and f*ck. I secretly longed for it to last longer. But I wouldn't allow myself to get suckered into those thoughts for long. It was what it was. But I like it.
Good Night Blogosphere!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
One of my fave Anita Baker songs..."Watch Your Step" (Aint that Truth)